. >> here at cn we all remember the day that your husband, ambassador to the united nations richard holbrooke died unexpect unexpectedly. you write about that day and the memorial. why don't you share with us. >> that was a day that started as all of my days for 17 years. started with a phone call from richard who, as you know, was always in a troubled spot. islamabad, kabul. on this day he was actually en route to the white house. we were making our christmas plans and laughing and joking on the phone and all was well, and an hour later i had a call if there the ambulance that was taking him to the emergency room and that was our last conversation. and then being the wife of such a public man, my morning cou ii mourning could not stay private and i understand that. and i had to plan a memorial that was worthy of such a public man, and that imposed its own stresses. but at the same time, it was a balm, reassuring to me to have discovered that richard had touched so many lives around the world and letters kept pouring in and i red each one. but in reading those letters, decided that i really c